I MISS MY COOKIE!!!!

LTA Royston's R.O.M

I did my officer a favor and help him shoot his solemnization with his fiance. Initially, equipments would be provided by him, but since I managed to get hold of my friend's Canon 5D, I didn't really use Royston's camera.

And that comes to my point, since he is my officer, should I address him is 'Sir' or 'Royston' during a shoot?. I mean, I am so used to calling him 'sir' in the office. For eg: Good morning Sir, Yes Sir, No Sir, will do sir. So during my shoot with him, I was stuck in calling him that. I was like, "Sir, can you please look there" & "Sir, I need you to hold her hand" . Weird right?

Btw, this wasn't a paid shoot. Its for my portfolio. I have never done an ROM before. So here is the first. I hope this would give me a head start to somewhere. :)

My 1st shot when I just arrived

Royston Tan & Poh Cheng Siok

A Walk In The Park

Husband & Wife. Soon

Waiting For Their Turn

I Take It That Nobody Dragged You Here?

Yes Yes, Come On. Get Over With It Already!

Haha, Here It Goes!!

1st, The Ring

Then, MY KISS!!!

Life Time Contract

JUST MARRIED!

Come Honey, Its Over!

Hahaa, Sir, If you read this. Its just for fun. Congratulations to both you and your wedded wife. May you hold hands till death do you part.

Sultan Mosque 2

Make: NIKON CORPORATION
Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 1/4 second
F Number: F/3.5
Focal Length: 18 mm
ISO Speed: 800
Date Picture Taken: Sep 29, 2008, 7:44:01 PM

Sultan Mosque

Make: NIKON CORPORATION
Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 1/4 second
F Number: F/4.2
Focal Length: 36 mm
ISO Speed: 800
Date Picture Taken: Sep 29, 2008, 7:43:22 PM

Beginning to The End

20.7.08 - Begins

1 - Love
2 - People
3 - Roses
12 - Weeks
13 - Sundays

12.10.08 - The End

The Noose Paper

TNP: An Indonesian maid was found in a house after being a suspect of kidnapping a baby girl. She was found with the baby girl in an unknown location. Photos are released to the media.


lol.. those photos where taken when Ameerah was REALLY young and my older sister was WAY THINNER.

Photos where taken on 5/8/2004

Thinking Of You

. S . U . H . A . N . A .

Sometimes you make me feel so angry, sometimes you make me smile. I don't know what is happening in your head, but let me say this 2 you. Love, I miss you so much that I'm angry @ you. I'm angry with the fact that we don't meet up anymore. I'm angry with the fact that I feel stuck in this relationship. I don't know where this is going, but what I know is that, If I'm patient enough, I will not regret the wait. Now, every single day I wait for you. I think of you, and I will not stop missing you.

I Will Always Be Thinking Of You

Hari Raya

ok here it goes, tell me..which blog whose owner is a malay, does NOT blog about their hari raya experience or atleast their pre-hari raya grandmother tales? ..... there? I told you, confirm have one... so I will need to have one for myself oso.

The night of raya, I spent the time with my sister, her bf and Yunos. Me and Yunos started walking around looking for his baju Since 12am but ended up waiting for my sister taht came @ 2am.. the place was super duper crowded.. pack nak mampos, mampos pon tak pack mcm gitu... during our escapade is geylang looking for baju and songkok and stuff like that, I managed to get my sister 2 do Henna design on her hand.. she ended up smudging part of the hand onto something.. hahahaha, then the design rosak..


and then it was 5am, we reallised that stalls start closing down without putting up any bargain... like wat the hell right?? so we rushed and got cheap baju for Yunos and my Dad for $25 each. The things there were freaking expensive. We bought cheese hotdogs and they cost $1.50 each.. and the Ramly burger were like $3.00 and when I opened it.. NO VEGGIE. And you know ehn you buy Ramly burger, they cover the patty with egg, well they didnt.. it was only the bottom part... what a rip off. And so @ 6 am we headed home in a cab as my sister's bf was limping due to gout. When I got home, I immediately told my sister,

"NEXT YEAR, IM NOT GOING!!"

I woke up late for raya, 3pm. My mom keep waking me up saying that my baju, is damaged due to the iron. there was a hole on the shoulder. I was SO pissed at her. I mean, my sister bought the baju kurung and it wasnt cheap. I liked it alot coz of the satin fabric.. but now its ruined. They ask me to place my Samping over my shoulder but of coz I said NO. Im no Mat kampong. In the end, I ended up wearing the Baju Kurung we bought for my father, bcoz its also white. I didnt feel comfortable and the fabric was so thin that if I didnt wear the Samping, you would be able to see the 'Family Guy" boxer I was wearing. Hehehe.


I spent my whole Hari Raya only at my Maternal Grandparents place. Nothing much happened. The usual stuff, Haikal? Working? NS? Ouh NS? Do what? Lost So much Weight.. that kinda stuff.. My and sis didnt take alot of photos as most of the relatives there are busy eating aways in the kitchen. Ouh ya, Yunos joined me on that day as his family is back in Brunei and he does not plan to go back there just for Raya. So I invited him to let him have a feel of raya. @ 9.30pm he left as thursday is a working that for him. Me and my family, we went back home @ 11.30.

Harbour Front

Make: Canon
Model: Canon EOS-1D Mark III
Shutter Speed: 1/13 second
F Number: F/2.8
Focal Length: 42 mm
ISO Speed: 1600
Date Picture Taken: Sep 19, 2008, 8:22:42 PM

On The Way

Who Dont know? Harbor Front @ Night

Notice What He Is Wearing

I passed by Henderson Rd not knowing that the brige will be on top of me.

Random, the cat was starring @ me

As you guys should know, I have been going to hawkers after hawkers shooting the stalls for Singtel Directory. since the whole project was a big one, I traveled alot and I do get to see good things. All this good things bring flowers to my project as the whole project is boring nak mampos, nak mampos pon tak boring macam gini.

For the last time

I want to hold you for the last time,
put my hands on your face and kiss you for the last time.
I'd love to hold you tight for the last time,
but I'm afraid if I'll fall for you again, for the last time

now that I have let you go
my feelings for you only god knows
my memories with you I will still hold
you and i, no longer together anymore

I want to whisper sweet words to you for the last time
watch the sunset with you for the last time
I want to sit around and get pinched by you for the last time
let you bite my tongue for the last time

do I still still have feelings for you?
or is just that I miss you
feelings like this make me confuse
if leaving you was the right thing to do

I want to hold your hand for the last time
Kiss you goodnight for the last time
I want to tell you now for the last time
I miss you so much and I still love you and I want to hold you and I still want to be with you if you are willing to change FOR THE LAST EFFING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Letting Go

Does it make a difference that I let you go? I dont even know if you truly love me anymore. Yea, true, I do get sms-es from you once in awhile saying that you do. But thats the point, I only hear from you once in awhile. I use to call you every night without fail. But when I stopped, I see no difference. Im stuck in this relationship not knowing whats going on. We use to be happy but not anymore. You use to be the sweetest person to me, but not anymore. No, no one is replacing you. Because honestly, I dont know if anyone can make me smile the way you did. If I stayed, I dont know if we are going to be the way we where. You are now busy with work, and same goes to me. And now that im on rotating shifts (ROTA), things will not be any better. The chance of me meeting you is even lesser. I would really love to talk to you about this face to face. But I dont even get the chance to talk to you on the phone, what more meeting you. Unless you think that we can have something again, unless you think that we can love each other the way we did, UNLESS you think that this silence will be over anytime soon, Im letting you go. You asked me to wait for you, you asked me to give you time. I asked why, you didnt want to tell me. I accepted it. But now that i reallised, we have no communication anymore. You didnt even have enough trust in me. I told you that my past would be over me, you where so afraid that it wouldnt. Now I can say with confidence that all my past, is my PAST. But whats the diff? Its over. I knew that I did what I could to sustain our relationship. But nothing helped. Im all alone now. Now I know, no matter how many friends I have, I have to go through this shithole by myself. Nothing and nobody can help me. LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE

Around Singapore

This past few days I have been busy shooting for Singtel directories. I took the project as a sub-sub photographer. Things are not going that well as I have to travel almost the whole Singapore snapping photos of stalls in hawker centers. Whats worst is that, when I arrive at the place, stalls are always close. When I arrive early, some stalls open late (night hawker). When im there in the evening, they are close for the day. Sadly, of all 14 hawkers I have manage to clock, only 6 are considered complete and the rest, I have to revisit. My body is starting to ache like a 60 year old man, not that I know how 60 year old man feel but its bad enough. I walked so much in a day that if calculated together, I could have walked the same total distance from Tuas to Changi. Why cant the company be more organized? get 4 photogrpahers, covering 4 different areas, North, South, East & West so that it can be done quickly. I mean, he is paying me as per Hawker not per day or whatever. If its not for the desperation of cash, I really would have given up and throw this project @ his face.

I was from Clementi to Dover to Ghim Moh to Commonwealth. And my last destination was suppose to be Havelock road. From Commonwealth I took a bus and dropped @ Central mall thinking that it would be around that area. But NO!! I was lost. I found out from Yunos that Havelock Rd is freaking long. He asked me to walk to ... Gangrene Rd??? Ouh no.... Ganges Rd.. I know I passed by that place, but I had no idea where that was.. so I ended up walking to chinatown, hong lim park. Over there, the shop tenants are really unfriendly people. I said I was rom singtel and they said that they didnt want to get involved with the goverment. WTF??!! but in the end, after going to Maxwell and Chinatown Food Centre, I found out that the main photographer has took photos of all the hawkers in that area... what a waste of time

I started the day at 12pm and ended the day at 7. I have not been fasting this past few days due to this stupid project. Im not all for the food, I just needed to drink and smoke. Forgive me Allah. Make me a stronger man.

CD Day Parade 2008 @ BRTC

Jamming

I spent the whole day with a newly formed band. They had a jamming session @ potong pasir. I went as a videogrpaher. I had fun with them. This goes without saying that the talents are superb. Redzwuan was SPLendid to the core. I have to be honest, I dont really know what a good guitarist sounds like besides playing perfectly, but his showmanship was terrific. On the way going to town after jamming, we decided to walk to a bus stop to get a bus and I just discovered that Potong Pasir is VERY near Macperson and Toa Payoh Road. I could have taken a bus from woodlands (966) instead of wasting my money AND time taking the train.

At peninsula, we wasted time while waiting for break-fast *applies to only 3 of us* and also looking @ guitars. At 6.15pm we decided to go funan to have KFC. so here is the thing, I saw 3 foreign looking makcik wearing tudung (head scarf), most prob from Indo, seating down chit chatting away. 1st thing in my mind was "hmm, maybe waiting for break fast", but on a closer look... jeng jeng jeng... ergkk!!! kenyang!! member dah bedal dulu!! that was so embarassing. its very degrading to us Muslims. ignore the youngsters that dont fast and eat anywhere and everywhere they want. but these are 3 "embak". what would people say? how do other religion want to respect us if we do this? aside from that, I was being a mean person at the kfc. I saw 4 seater table un-occupied and there was 5 of us. beside that empty table was 2 guys, 1 was clearly malay *tak puasa, pat tangan ada Pepsi*. and beside them was another un-occupied 4 seater table. me being mean, I said loudly in malay "duduk jer pat sini, dahtu suruh ni budak BELAH pi meja sebelah. orang datang nak buka puasa". hehehehehehehe. so they did leave.

we hanged out @ suntec city, starbucks since Rasul's "mate" *ehems* have staff discount. we hanged out there till late, thinking that we will catch the last train, as Rayza and Rasul keeps on saying to me "Rilek Din, the nite is still young". Ouh ya, whats with my nick name?? DIN?? kiwak, tak handsome, favour ah geng. Stop It siak!! anyhooo, to make story short, we walked to Siti Hole and found out that the train has said its final goodbye. Where would you go when you are stuck @ siti hole in the middle of the night and you dont want to take cab? McDonald bras basah jugak jatuh. I had my Sahur there. Senin McGriddle, eh no, Sausage McGriddle w/ Egg. The rest of the guys had the same. I have to tell you, we all LOVED it. but no suprise to me as it was the 2nd time I tried it. By the time it was 6, we headed home. All the guys took cab while I took the train alone. One more thing I would like to Bitch about. What The Fish is wrong with SMRT? I went into the station waiting for the 1st train and it was like seating in an OVEN!! and there was no one there yet except for afew of random people. But by the time that the other train arrived and passengers where waiting for the transfer, Dah macam Senin McMuffin dalam OVEN lah SIOL!!!
OK!
Thats All!

PICS:
Abang Rayza
From Left:
Drummer, Lead Guitarist, Bassist, Rythm Guitarist and Vokal

Chilling @ Starbucks Suntec Siti

Sustaining

To be together was never a regret
For you have made me a better man
You show me what true love was like
It was just me, stuck in my past life
As of today im willing to let go,
So our love will go fast from slow

Even if time is not by our side
I shall not make that a reason why
we should never be heart to heart
even with our hands apart.
I shall try to make you smile
even if it takes awhile

My ears and shoulders are always there
If you need me for a hug and care
I wont let you cry alone,
For you will always be my love
Every time I pray to Him,
I ask to banish away my sins
But us, I shall always pray
never let our love decay

ILY - Even If It Hurts

Is That True

When girls are quiet, Millions ofthings are running in their mind.

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When girls are not arguing, They are thinking deeply.

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When girls look 'staringly' at you, They are wondering how long you will be around.

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When girls answer "i'm fine" after afew seconds, They are not at all fine.

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When girls stare at you, They are wondering why are you lying.

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When girls lay on your chest, They are wishing for you to be theirs forever.

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When girls call you everyday, They are seeking for your attention.

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When girls want to see you everyday,They want to be loved and pampered by you.

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When girls sms u everyday, They miss you and want you to reply at least once.

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When girls say I LOVE YOU, They mean it.

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When girls say that they can't live without you, They have made up their mind thatyou are their future.

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Finally.. When girls say "i miss you", No one in this world can miss you more than them..

I Love You - Does That Mean Anything?

It seems that our relationship has slowed down to almost 5km/h driving in an express lane. We started running before learning how to walk. Now I feel that everything is comming to a stop. But why give up? I know that I cant forget my past but I will if you give me time. Isn't this whats its all about? I slowly forget my past when you are by my side. But recently, since we seldom meet each other, I start thinking about it. I need you to be with me and guide me. I'm not asking much from you. Every relationship has its flaws. Our past is the greattest flaw now. But if we try to fix, insya'allah (on gods will) things will be back to normal. Dont give up on our relationship. Atleast I know I dont. I wana cherish every single moment we spent together. I will try and do whatever it takes for whatever is in between us to be over. I wont say "I Love You" until it means something to you.

I Want To Know

bila kita bertentang mata,
aku terjatuh cinta
bila tangan bergenggam sama,
aku rasa tergoda
bila engkau mula berkata,
hatiku gembira
katakanlah pada diriku,
jika engkau mencintai ku

Recruit

One year has passed since those photos where taken. It happened to be the Ramadan last year. The Muslim recruits where fasting and the Chinese guys where having dinner. I just had to find something to do while waiting. We had a good laugh after looking at how our faces turn out to be. Today is the 7th day of the fasting month. I'm holding it in there. Staying strong. But what bothers me now is not about fasting, but about returning back to work tomorrow. I hate going to the office as its very far away. I hate the office as I have face people that I don't want to face. Whats worst is that I hate the office because its boring.