Letting Go

Does it make a difference that I let you go? I dont even know if you truly love me anymore. Yea, true, I do get sms-es from you once in awhile saying that you do. But thats the point, I only hear from you once in awhile. I use to call you every night without fail. But when I stopped, I see no difference. Im stuck in this relationship not knowing whats going on. We use to be happy but not anymore. You use to be the sweetest person to me, but not anymore. No, no one is replacing you. Because honestly, I dont know if anyone can make me smile the way you did. If I stayed, I dont know if we are going to be the way we where. You are now busy with work, and same goes to me. And now that im on rotating shifts (ROTA), things will not be any better. The chance of me meeting you is even lesser. I would really love to talk to you about this face to face. But I dont even get the chance to talk to you on the phone, what more meeting you. Unless you think that we can have something again, unless you think that we can love each other the way we did, UNLESS you think that this silence will be over anytime soon, Im letting you go. You asked me to wait for you, you asked me to give you time. I asked why, you didnt want to tell me. I accepted it. But now that i reallised, we have no communication anymore. You didnt even have enough trust in me. I told you that my past would be over me, you where so afraid that it wouldnt. Now I can say with confidence that all my past, is my PAST. But whats the diff? Its over. I knew that I did what I could to sustain our relationship. But nothing helped. Im all alone now. Now I know, no matter how many friends I have, I have to go through this shithole by myself. Nothing and nobody can help me. LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE